UNmotivational

I have decided that I am a challenge to motivate. 

This moment of self-awareness began about half way through my pregnancy, when pinterest (and a dear friend) guided me to a post-preggo's "journey-to-post-baby-fitness" blog.  In this blog, the new momma proclaimed (and provided with picture evidence) that within about 12 weeks her body was back to normal--and her flat belly was proof for all on the world wide web to see.  She explained that the purpose of this blog was to motivate others, that she had to work hard to get her results.  Furthermore, she accomplished the great feat of gaining only a belly bump--and the quick loss of it-- by hard work, denying cravings, and exercising rigorously before, during, and after her pregnancy. 

My response to Miss Perfection and the secret to her success?  (Keep in mind that Preggo Cole hibernated the entire first trimester, and gave into just about every craving under the sun.). . .

That @#$!@!!!  Who does she think she is?
Pause.
Tears.
Husband asks, "What's wrong?"
My hysterical response (said through tears and a shaky, borderline psycho voice), "I've let myself go in this pregnancy!! I've gained too much weight!" 
Husband reassures. 
Preggo Cole eats some comfort carbs...vows never to look at that woman's blog again.

In recent months, I've laughed at that psychotically preggo moment and how ridiculous I was.  But, then, I had a revelation.  It wasn't that I was angry at someone for being successful, or even trying to motivate others.  In almost every area of life, I am never inspired by someone who only shares the easy or perfect parts of their success stories. 

Take church and spiritual life, for example.  How many people join a church because the pastor comes off as perfect and having no struggles of his own?  On the other hand, how many join a church because the pastor and leadership are leading in humility and vulnerability?  How many of you really want to open up, be accountable, and share your struggles with someone who acts as if he or she had none?  Don't get me wrong-I am not advocating the awkward-air-your-dirty-laundry-on-facebook-or-to-strangers "vulnerability."  I'm just saying that humility and vulnerability--or the lack thereof--are my personal keys to inspiration. 

I'll end this blog with the story of a dear friend (who shall remain nameless).  Several years ago, she began a journey of health and fitness that changed her whole lifestyle.  Most people say they exercise and diet to "be healthy-" aka, look hot in their jeans.  This friend literally ate right, exercised, and lived to be healthy for serving Christ.  How did I know?  She got weirded out when people would freak out over her weight loss, and she literally glorified God in all of it.  It's no surprise that this friend is someone who knows my best--as well as my absolute worst.  Why?  Because she is vulnerable and real. 

And that is what truly motivates me.